For the Love of Notes

I have always a notepad on me. At least one. I make notes. I love making notes. I am obsessed with making notes. I also add notes to my phone and on random pieces of paper that I then stuff inside the notepads, books, my diary or to many other places where I subsequently abandon them. When I finally attempt to bring some order to my note-making, most of the time I can’t decipher any of them as any doctor out there would be proud of my handwriting. I am compiling those notes, always thinking I will come back to them. I must. One day. When I won’t be too busy making notes about making notes.

When I was little, I noted all important information on my skin, on my arm, palm, back of my hand. That way I never forgot anything. Unless the pen washed out. I started practicing this again. However I think it might be getting little out of hand!

What do you think?



Award Alert

I have been nominated for the Liebster Award. I am a skeptic. If I win an award, there is something behind it. You know, someone wants something kind of thing. Maybe that is not skepticism but paranoia but anyway, Awards = Suspicion. So why have I decided to accept this one?

Firstly, the nominator (and thank you for the nomination) – Marci – is one of my new favourite people who went through the A to Z challenge with a brilliant theme and you should check her out.

Secondly, one of the conditions is to answer the nominator’s questions – and I actually wanted to answer Marci’s.

Thirdly, I must tell you 11 random things about myself, which feels very liberating for a skeptic/paranoid individual like myself.

Fourthly, I have to nominate  five to ten other blogs – which means reading and discovering other people (and hope they are not as cynical as myself) which is actually the whole point of blogging community.

Fifthly, I can ask them eleven silly questions in return!


There are rules. Of course. I will start with those.

1. Link back and thank the blogger who nominated you in your post.

2. List 11 random facts about yourself.

3. Answer the 11 question asked by the blogger who nominated you.

4. Pick 5 – 10 new bloggers (must have less than 300 followers) to nominate. Do not re-nominate the blogger who nominated you.

5. Ask them 11 new questions.

6. Go to each blogger’s site and inform them of their nomination.


Rule number one is competed. Now to rule number two – 11 random facts about myself:

1. I find colouring books therapeutic and most of the time I colour the pictures to my liking, reality be damned.

2. I played Tetris to level 15 and finished it. The game claimed to have only 10 levels.

3. I have to change something about my living arrangements roughly every six months – redecorating my room, reshuffling the furniture or moving to a new place. In the past ten years I lived at nine different addresses.

4. I find men wearing different coloured socks strangely attractive.

5. ~ is my newest addiction. I change my addictions. All except the coffee. I am faithful to coffee.

6. I have tried to track down the beginnings of the Liebster Award.

7. I write best with a glass of wine and talking to myself in third person. Aloud.

8. I had to look up how to spell ‘fourthly’…..actually I have to look up quite a lot of words.

9. I have fairy lights and dream of ceilings that can handle chandeliers.

10. I can’t ride a bicycle. I have tried. I have scars to prove it. I will learn it one day.

11. One of the things on this list is a lie.


Rule number three – answer the nominator’s questions – now this is fun!

1.Why did you decide to start writing your blog?

For all the wrong reasons. But I’ve learned.

2. In one sentence, describe what your blog is about. There’s a twist, though: don’t use any personal or possessive pronouns! 

It is work in progress.

3.  What is your earliest memory?

Asking my mom for tea. I hated milk at a very early age. Of course everything changed when I discovered coffee.

4. Do you dream?  If so, do you dream in colour or black and white?

I do dream. When I dream consciously, it is in colour, otherwise in grayscale.

5. if you could only make one journey during your lifetime, but it could be to anywhere in the world, where would you go?  Why?

I would go straight ahead at an angle. That way there is a chance I would see the whole world.

6. What is one of your guilty pleasures (and this had better be good…I want something really embarrassing!)?

None of my pleasures are guilty. Sorry. Except watching entertainment TV – anything that has countdowns of silly things.

7. Pick one:  the Harry Potter series or the Lord of the Rings trilogy.  Follow-up to what you picked:  books or movies?

Lord of the Rings. Films. Liv Tyler.

8. What is your favourite holiday, and if it’s NOT Halloween, why?

I’m not picky but Halloween is not my favourite because you don’t get a day off.

9. List three words that describe your personality.

I’m sure there is a diagnosis for me with three words but I am too scared to get me checked out.

10. What is your favourite thing about how you earn a living?

Paycheque. But the people are work with are not bad either.

11. If you could live in any time period (past, present or future), when and where would you be?



And the nominees for the Liebster award are:

1. My Words As Weapons because there is never enough poetry.

2. The Other Land of Oz because I want to know how Penance will continue.

3. Kris’s Chaotic Random Insights and Rambles because I like random.

4. Words and Lines because I loved his self discovering theme.

5. A MaeDay Life because of her poems and positivity.

6. Espressopinions because opinions over an espresso are the best.

7. Silvia Writes because she has introduced me to a new culture.


So you poor souls, if you accept the nomination, expect hard but fun work and hope you will like my 11 questions:

1. Which random fact about myself in this post do you think is a lie?

2. What is your favourite breakfast food? (If you are not eating breakfast, you should start. Just saying.)

3. If you could spend a day in a body of different gender, what would be the first thing you would do?

4. What is your favourite animal and what do you think you have in common with this animal (physical or behavioural)?

5. What are you most afraid of?

6. Who is your favourite female hero – can be real or fictional – and why?

7. If you could, what physical object would you wipe out of existence?

8. Life on other planets – possible or not?

9. What song are you listening to right now or what song was the last you’ve heard?

10. Your favourite acronym.

11. Would you prefer to know how to fly or how to breathe under water?


So that’s it folks. I am now going to harass the nominees. Have fun!

Here by Marin Sorescu


I’m here, I’m nowhere

The house itself is persecuted

into building walls of silence

which it must stand behind, locked in.


Locked inside myself, I haven’t given up.

Give me gibberish, babble, double talk –

let equivocation be sweet on my tongue!

Then a raven croaks: Nevermore!


The gleam vanishes off the world.

This blind, ravening century has put

its mark upon the very bread we eat.


Anything I say will be interpreted

by thugs. The cop on guard outside

is trying to get my spaniel to confess.


From: Censored Poems



For the love of brackets

I would say I have been neglecting my lovely blog long enough…although it was for a good reason, but such is life. We can’t let anyone defeat us. And by ‘we’ (psycho alert!), I mean myself. 

It is strange that just putting down these few words makes me feel better. {[Better doesn’t exactly express my state of being but I can’t think of a better (aargh!) word no, scratch that – suitable word]. (And yes, I think it is totally appropriate to apply brakes from mathematics to writing. Brackets are sexy.)} 

So I need to get myself organized [the US loving auto-correct keeps changing it to organised (and it looks too soft without the z)]. Me thinks a new list is in order – new list of existing writing challenges. A to Z challenge anyone? That is the main one for the time being but there is also the new Fiction in 50 and all the beautiful Daily prompts I haven’t checked in (cliched phrase  alert!) what feels like ages. I have to look up the rest (too tired to do it now).

Also, it is the time of the lent. Or so I was told. My colleagues and friends are giving up things: alcohol, chocolate, cigarettes, using lifts etc. I gave up my cat. Not because it’s lent. Because she had cancer. Aggressive one. I miss her. She was the gentlest animal I have had the pleasure to meet….I guess I should have put ‘morbid alert’ in brackets before  writing this. 

Anyways, random state of mind = random post. Be well.

Indifference by Dan Rhodes

Not wanting the intensity of my love to drive Skylark away, I feigned indifference. I worried that this tactic wasn’t working; seeming bored in my company, she would keep looking at her watch as though impatient to go somewhere far better. Even so, we would always disinterestedly arrange to meet up again. When, besotted, I casually suggested we get married, she shrugged her shoulders and, yawning, said, ‘Whatever.’ I couldn’t believe my luck. The man asked us whether we were prepared to love and cherish one another forever. Skylark said she might as well, and I told him I supposed so.

From Anthropology and a hundred other stories

The Black Spiral

Trent's World (the Blog)

Blackhole Mind

Someone I don’t know
Is living in my head
He sees the whole world
Just in shades of red
My opinions are his food
He grows stronger on thin air
Mining through my prejudice
Feasting on my fear
A never ending whirlpool
Sweeps me without fight
A bottomless sinkhole
Devours everything in sight
The blackhole in my mind
Collapses in forever
Making my most idiotic thoughts
Seem so very clever
Oh Anger! Oh Hate!
Gentle shouts, violent whispers cease
Leave me to live my life
To live my life in peace


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