my mind races 100 miles per second yet the machine disintegrates cold burns my soul yet my heart's on fire contradiction is my life
the day drags at a fast pace i'm busy with boredom productively procrastinating brain full of empty ideas body so heavy but there's nothing inside heart ticking off my life
you bring me down so hard you praise me so high you tell me off so frankly you argue with me so fiercely you cheer me up like no other you are the reason i am and why i can i make it happen
collective loneliness the sign of these times fuck the curfew fuck the rules i'm going insane here
feet planted firmly on the ground arms stretched out open i am one with the nature kiss the sky isn't this the most hopeful line in the universe?
touch me, hug me, cuddle me kiss me, squeeze me, shag me poke me, slap me, punch me someone...anyone...
armour upon armour walls and trenches traps and mines wrapped in barbed wire i am safe, protected invincible (i am boxed in imprisoned alone)
wake up at the same time everyday prepare your clothes the night before how can you do something big when you can't even brush your teeth every morning? every act, even the littlest one creates space for doing more the more you do, more you want to, less you do, less you are able to sometimes habits are good.
i think i'm going, going, gone a/ insane b/ numb c/ apathic d/ alcoholic e/ all of the above don't disturb me, i'm going through shit
freedom during lockdown with 8pm curfew madness knows no borders nor rules it's roaming freely more contagious than the virus we're hiding from ... edited: thank you to https://annehiga.com/ for pointing out my typo 🙂