has every person at the age of 27
thought about death?

i did
i remember being haunted 
by the thought 
but why?

27
it's an imaginary milestone
our youth turning
into a true adulthood 
a little death

death of our wildest dreams
fantasies about our futures 

harsh slap of reality

Note: This was the biggest stretch of them all! The above image of double lined Z is a symbol for a set of integers. Number 27 is a part of this set...stretch. 

he reminds me of my youth
the one i wasted, never lived
i want it back 

he lives his life to the brink
i envy him
he has no fear
no worry
no care what society thinks

he's a young man
and i'm young with him

stick up my nose every week
never ending cycle of
home-work-grocery shop
behind locked doors by 8
no space at home
only escape is running
when i daydream 
i don't even mind 
the cold, the wind, the rain
enough of this
i'm turning into anarchist 

xx

building imaginary walls
“protecting” my heart
what a waste of love

love is not pain
love does not hurt
love uplifts 

in my ears
every emotion
every mood
every time 
keeping me alive

stuck
chained
restrained 

can't move
can't escape

i promise to be
a good girl
release me


note: cheat again as i couldn't find a song starting with the letter u but still kind of on the theme as mgk has plenty of unreleased material. 

i promise myself 
to stay young
till i die

i think it's called
midlife crisis

...it feels good. 

i'm invisible 
   but somehow i get noticed 
i want to watch 
   not be observed
i need a hug
   but still hide my tears 

don't look at me
it burns my skin 


"i don't care who sees me naked.
i do care who sees me cry."
~ night manager (tv series)

all the things i ever wanted 
but was too afraid 
or too lazy
or creative with excuses
i'm going to do now. 

what first?
spin the roulette
the list is long...