Eva Marasca

i'm invisible 
   but somehow i get noticed 
i want to watch 
   not be observed
i need a hug
   but still hide my tears 

don't look at me
it burns my skin 


"i don't care who sees me naked.
i do care who sees me cry."
~ night manager (tv series)

all the things i ever wanted 
but was too afraid 
or too lazy
or creative with excuses
i'm going to do now. 

what first?
spin the roulette
the list is long...

standing in front of the looking glass
questioning my existence again
as if the blank face could answer. 

what is your life's purpose?

because i haven't found it yet
i can almost sense it
it's there 
within my grasp
but my fingertips only touch air

why are you here?
or are you just a sheep?

note: first one where i had to "cheat" as i couldn't find a song starting with "q". there will be few more - "u", "x" and "z".

i promise to myself
never to give up
  experiencing happiness
  feeling love
  chasing dreams
  facing fears
  nurturing my mind
  fighting for my rights

  living 

my mind races 100 miles per second
yet
the machine disintegrates 

cold burns my soul 
yet
my heart's on fire 

contradiction is my life 

the day drags at a fast pace
i'm busy with boredom
productively procrastinating

brain full of empty ideas
body so heavy but
there's nothing inside
heart ticking off my life

you bring me down so hard 
you praise me so high
you tell me off so frankly
you argue with me so fiercely

you cheer me up like no other
you are the reason i am 
and why i can

i make it happen

collective loneliness 
the sign of these times

fuck the curfew
fuck the rules
i'm going insane here

feet planted firmly on the ground
arms stretched out
open
i am one with the nature
kiss the sky

isn't this the most hopeful line in the universe?

touch me, hug me, cuddle me
kiss me, squeeze me, shag me
poke me, slap me, punch me

someone...anyone...